Crushes + boyfriends

hi everyone,

so sorry I haven’t posted in a while but I haven’t really had anything to write about until now!

I have recently been talking with my best friend Lor and Star Shaw about boys! Lor and I both have a crush on two or three boys at the same time. I have a crush on two – GP and Papa John. Okay so he isn’t really called Papa John but that is the nickname my classmates and even himself uses. He is part italian so that name kind of stuck. Only Lor will really understand properly.

Anyways, back to the point. PJ was with me for the last two lessons of today because of a group for higher ability students of the year (RS). Him and I are part of that group you see but today was different because he was flirting with me.

PJ has previously admitted that he flirts with everyone but he doesn’t take it across 2 whole hours. At the end of the first lesson of RS, he was one of the last to leave and I was just standing holding the door. He stood next to me, smiled and rested his head on my shoulder. Now he would never do that when just being himself and flirting normally. Before this though, we were kind of flirting you could say but I think it was more on his part than mine. I went along with it because I think I like him back. After lunch was pretty much the same but at the end of the day, he walked with me to the gates and said “see you tomorrow” but he said it so sweetly it could have melted anyones heart.

After sharing this with you guys, I thought I would give you a few tips on how to know if you like someone or if they are flirting with you. So, here goes…

  1. Feelings when around them! Nervousness? Butterflies? Shy? These are just a few feelings you might have but there are other very similar ones. Everyone is different but these are some of the most common feelings.
  2. Their actions around you! If you find them near you often and avoiding eye contact, they might be shy and not quite ready but they are likely to like you. If they are one of those who likes to flirt with everyone and they are different around you, they might like you – only if it is a good different not a bad different obviously. For example, they could walk with you even if you are reluctant to let them!
  3. Speech! If they talk to you and they are trying to find out more about you, there is a good chance they will like you. Also if they are talking sweetly – as in not like they would to a normal friend and not nastily either – it is another sign!

Remember, the boy should make the first move not the girl. This is because if the girl makes the first move, the boy will be reluctant to reject so wait for them to ask you! This is the one main thing I have learnt about relationships in secondary school!

Also make sure you put your best friend first. Lor and me have a little saying I though I would share with you guys… Best friends before boyfriends!

I hope soem of these points help those of you out there wondering if you like someone or if they like you. If anyone has any other thoughts let me know in the comments section below. I would love to hear from you.


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There’s a first for everything

Hi everyone,

The title probably sounds a bit strange – There’s a first for everything. Well of course there is. There’s the first time you ride your bike, the first time you fly in a plane, the first time you draw a horse!

But I’ve just had another first! Yesterday, I said I had faced my fear of doing a standing dive, well that was a first because I had never done one before and today I’ve had another first. Not quite as exciting but still a first. I’ve just had my first Costa latte! I have had a Costa before but only a hot chocolate but now I have had a latte too. It was the best drink ever! I don’t normally go to Costa much but now I think I will have Costa’s a lot more!

Thanks to anyone who actually read this post. I know it was quite a boring post but I would love to hear about any of your firsts and don’t forget to comment your overcomings of your fears on my previous posts.

Bye for now.

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Overcoming your fears

Overcoming fears is a scary thing but it’s something you sometimes have to do to be happy with yourself. Sometimes, it can be a big thing like flying but other times it can be a small thing like walking under scaffolding!

Those were both big fears of mine and one still is! I overcame my fear of flying in 2014 when I went to Mallorca. It was hard to get used to flying but I eventually found it wasn’t too bad after all. I am still afraid of walking under scaffolding so I always walk around it when possible!

However I overcame another fear yesterday – I did a standing dive!

So, it’s quite scary doing a standing dive when you are so used to doing sitting or kneeling dives. But… I did it yesterday! I say I did it, but I should probably say I tried to do it because my first go was almost a belly-flop. My second try was better but not perfect. At least I didn’t belly-flop that time though.

I have to give credit to Shaw who helped me and taught me how to do one.

Tell me your fears in the comments below. I would love to hear if any of you have managed to overcome your fears.

Good luck!

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Upcoming Exams

Hey everyone,

I have already had 3 panick attacks about my art exam tomorrow and I only started thinking about it properly two weeks ago. Ok it was bad of me to leave it so late but I was having fun over Christmas. It’s unfair for the school to tell us to prepare for art over Christmas because art takes a long time to prepare for especially¬† when it’s me as I take so much time over my art. The exam is tomorrow and I am worried I will fail because none of my practices have worked.

I get a lot of pressure put on me at exam time, like my parents. My art teacher has even put a lot of pressure on me this year because I have built up a high reputation in art. I am supposed to be very talented but if this exam fails, there will be a lot of doubt and a lack of self confidence appear.

It’s a shame but all I can do now is try and hope for the best.

Thanks to anyone who is reading even if you think me talking to you about this is pointless. I just would like to know if there is anyone out there who feels like this when it comes to exams whether they are practice or not.

Love to you always

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Quick Update On Sleepover

Hey guys,

I went to Gothy’s sleepover Friday night and it was OK but not great. We all got on alright and we had fun. It’s quite surprising that we got to sleep before midnight but we did…or at least I did!

Films were not great though because I am not allowed to watch 15s and the films we chose were all 15s. I say we but it was more they with me having to go along with it because I was outnumbered.

Food also wasn’t the best as we had pizza. I also didn’t get a very good choice in that because I had never been to Domino’s and therefore didn’t know what they sold. I ended up just saying I would have the same as everyone else so I didn’t enjoy it much and only had 1 piece. I guess that was kind of my fault though because I was indecisive. 1 piece was enough for me anyway as I am dieting and not eating much. It was actually quite filling just having 1 piece.

Sleeping got quite claustrophobic but there was nothing that could be done about that because her room is quite small for 4 people to sleep in.

Yesterday we went to Bounce for the rest of Gothy’s birthday which was the best part of her whole party I think although it was very tiring. We had McDonald’s after which was not great but I had no say in it so I had to go along with that too.

I can’t say it wasn’t fun because it was and I have spoken about what wasn’t great earlier. I want to thank Gothy for inviting me because it shows she is a good friend.

I’m not too tired now because I went to bed early last night but I now have lots of homework to catch up on!

Bye for now,

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Sleepover tonight!

Hi guys,

I could do with some support for tonight because I have a sleepover to go to.

I am so, so nervous about going to my friend Gothy’s (not real name obviously) sleepover tomorrow. She is one of my closest friends but not my best friend because that’s Lor and (hopefully) that will never change!

But, back to the sleepover. Its Gothy’s birthday on Saturday and she¬†has invited Lor, Jell and me to her sleepover. Jell is another of my friends but also not as close as Lor and Jell is also not her real name. Gothy, Jell, Lor and I often spend a lot of time together at school but we have never been together as a four for a sleepover. I’m worried I will be the one to mess it up because of the socially awkward person I seem to be becoming. What if I say something really stupid and they judge me? I mean that would be terrible. What if I spill something or smash something? Her parents will hate me. What if they all want to do something that I don’t and they leave me out? What if I try to focus too much attention on me and they get bored? What if we all have an argument? What if this sleepover makes me lose my closest and nearly only friends? What if I ruin Gothy’s Birthday? That was possibly the worst thing I could think of.

The next question is what am I going to wear. I don’t have to be too fashionable because Gothy isn’t the best at dressing well (no offence of course). But then there’s Jell and she is the most popular out of the group and dresses quite fashionably. And finally there is Lor who wears everything Superdry. So I guess I’ll just wear leggings and a top of some sort. Wow that was difficult!

The final thing is am I going to be Ok? Well I hope so! I’ll blog and hopefully post some photos. Or I might fake being ill because I am so worried I’ll ruin everything. No I’ll go.

I’m still so nervous!

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Looking back on 2016

Hiya everyone.

I love photography so I decided to share a few of my photos from last year but not people (obviously).





Bee at work


Little butterfly


A loved one


I love art so I decided to share with you some of my art from 2016 too!




Heart broken


So blue




Hope you all like them. Let me know what you think in the comments.

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